Dear T-

You know the range of emotion which surges through each of us knowing someone so young as you experience ALL of this difficulty. Our comments have betrayed our deep concern for you. Your family members and your caregivers are the first line of conscientious opinion which should bear upon the horribly difficult decision you face.

It is so VERY HARD for you to think in terms of what the long term may bring as I should imagine we are all of like mind hoping for you a long, joyful, healthy, and far less painful passage through humanity. What can we say?

Truly, we pray for you in this, and will continue to do so. Even so, there is an ultimate thought you approach with those I mention above. Being conservative has tended to be my approach as guided by my caregivers, and do understand this PLEASE..... in the almost seven years since my auto wreck on I-70 in 2005, I have endured surgery of varying types 29 times to put Humpty Dumpty back together again. As for ME, I have approached every time in the OR as fraught with risk..... why else would the physicians and care facilities have each of us, or maybe in your case, your parents sign off to the consent forms hoping to pull in place protections around them.

Even when it was time for my implant, as I have written time and again, I approached it with trepidation to the last night before the procedure. Everytime hurt. Some of my surgeries caused damage either from procedure or from scarring which produced life long lasting effects, nerve damage and such. Others granted me the means to be able to type this with both hands, though my doc feared I would lose my right arm because the nerve was all but dead before still another surgery. Then you know my blessing I count from the ultimate permanent implant surgery which has helped me regain some of life thought lost, such as regaining the abiltiy to practice law for others and not just for the company my family and I founded to help others who are like us here.

The future is yours. I would do nothing without prayerful consideration, but then that is the way I am assembled. I would consult those family and caregivers I first mentioned for they are the ones who KNOW your case. We who populate this special place would be ill equipped to recommend any particular course of action for you. For instance, working with your doc, you may find the present symptom is either manageable or a passing phenomenon. Thus, T, for you I leave the thoughts I experienced in my situation, realizing without appropriate care I would still be trapped full time in my bed of pain and perhaps missing an arm. I relied on prayer, on family whom I know absolutely and trust, and on my caregivers, all of whom are beyond reproach. Ultimately, the decision may well come down to you and your parents having a heart to heart discussion with your doctor.

Praying for you the absolute best T,
Concerned for you,
Mark56z