Hello Saffy
I am so sorry to hear of what your daughter and you are suffering
Because of our guidelines, and also to protect your daughter's privacy, I have had to edit out the copy of her email. I also had to change the title of the thread to include a "trigger" icon, warning others that there is upsetting and OT=off topic content
I would also like to let you know that we have a special forum dealing with suicidal posts, where there are very caring members. If you need support for suicidal feelings, they will be there for you
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html
I hope things will get better and that your daughter will be able to get into a support group as well to help her heal emotionally from this horrible ordeal