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Originally Posted by candid
I have been diagnosed with C-PTSD 2 years ago. It has taken me till now to even get out of the house and that is only because of my service dog and my husband. I went through 4 therapists and a Phycologist that told me my case was different from anything they have ever handled, so of course they gave me medicine and sent me on my way. For four months now I have been on my own trying to deal with my problems. My husband understands I am sick but he can't understand that I am completely different.
I have had trama events within 6 months and 2 years later I am still without any memory of my past, short term memory loss, and panic attacks that come on without any reason. I do still have flash backs but not as often, they were replaced by devistating panic attacks. My service dog helps me get out and feel more comfortable in stores. My husband on one side and my dog on the other I feel safe.
I need support from others with this problem, someone to talk to that understands.
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Hi Candid, I'm happy you're here. I too am a new member and just found this site yesterday. My first experience with trauma was as a twelve year old child. More events happened as the years progressed and I am now 46. I've been thru everything from and abusive childhood, my very first bf beating me, my fiance lying to me and using a false identity only for me to find that he was robbing banks and funneling the money thru my accounts, to having my second husband try to kill me. I can truly understand the panic, racing thoughts, the inablity to ever feel safe, paranoia... you name it. I went through all of these things for decades while trying to raise a daughter basically alone for most of the time on disability with alot of other physical problems as well. The point is, I want you to know there is hope!! During the past two years I have finally met the most loving and generous man of my lifetime. More importantly I learned to love myself and that I deserved to be loved. Twenty four years of Psychiatry, meds, and therapy didn't seem to make much difference for me, and I had lots of bad reactions to medications and even those I take today don't work very well. Sam, my significant other, finally took me to Reiki and Accupunture. It has been a true miracle for me. I still take my medicine of course, but just two nights ago I broke down and cried after a panic attack and he put his arms around me and suddenly I felt this calm envelope me and I felt loved for the first time in my life. This was three days after my first accupunture treatment and after four Reiki visits. I have also started and excercise program for slipped discs in my neck and I feel the natural endorphins that this releases works even better than the meds. I'm not a doctor but perhaps you may want to give these a try if they are available in your area. Sadly, my Mom passed away last December and I miss her terribly. The blessing however, is that she left me enough money to try these new treatments that aren't covered by my ins. and it's been worth every penny!!! Stay strong and stay positive. hugs...
