I am very proud of you for using your voice to your husband. I also would love a new email buddy so am here.
Another thought about therapist maybe someone on here could suggest one if you feel comfortable saying the area you live in.
I am a person who has also a very hard time being in limbo. I hate the unknown and not having a concrete. I guess in times of this i just try to take it day by day and get through in the best way.
Happy New Year too