Welcome topaz!
Thank you for joining our group. You will find this site to be a wonderful site. It is full of education, empathy, logic, sympathy, debate, friends, referrals, links, and new discoveries each and every day. I have felt myself come out of deep holes just by opening the page and reading the posts. You get to know so much by being here. I am sad about what has driven you here though, but hope that you can receive some relief from what you can learn here - I have. And I have seen many other as well. I can understand about indifferent drs - just keep searching for the right one. I had to go through some pretty awful dr's (one said to "just get elbow pads"!) before I finally had a diagnosis. I hope you can get some help soon!