Dear Bobby,
Embrace the idea of escape. Use any thing you can to get through your day.

It is ok that you you do not think about what you learned in the spiritual class. The class is a good way for you you to escape.

Metamucil's main ingredient is Psyllium. http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0000092/

Talk to your doctor. You can buy that separately in a capsule to drink with water without the sugar or sugar substitute.

I am so impressed that you are keeping off your weight. Keeping it off, according to last week's New York Times Magazine, is harder than taking it off. You have a great achievement that you can be proud of.

M