Dear Ace

i haven't been able to hold a steady for a good while now... kept trying, and kept falling apart. usually it's the job though, so i am going to try a different field. however some things are me.... i am searching for solutions through therapy but i am so scared i just will not make it. i understand the feeling. i also have migraines that in periods of stress get worse and do not respond to medication, making me not viable for work, or at best less productive, for about 7-10 days of the month (non consecutive, 2 here, 3 there... etc.)

i don't have disability, i don't know how to get it, i live in a different country and nobody (not my doc, not the social workers) seems to be able to help me get it, and from what i can tell there isn't a type that actually gives income here, but only protection in the work force... very limited protection... so far so i gave up... at least for now....

i also want to invite you to read, and when you feel up to it, introduce yourself, to the understanding group of folks in our (link follows)

Survivors of Suicide Forum

that BrokenFriend mentioned above. several of us post there more or less often as well as here, but you will find many other folk there who have been touched by suicide in various ways - those who lost a loved one to suicide, those who themselves attempted and failed, and those who have (or still do) go through feelings of suicidality. they are a supportive bunch with a lot to offer. be sure to read the "sticky threads" at the top of that forum, including
Thoughts from Pter on Suicide
and
What to do if you are alone and thinking about suicide.

another good resource: http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

all the best to you - and welcome to Neurotalk, and to the Bipolar Forum.

~ waves ~