Dear Lizzo
I see you are new too... so... Welcome to Neurotalk, to the Bipolar Forum, and if you wish i do encourage you to visit the Survivors of Suicide (link is in my post to Ace, right before this one). I don't know if you ever go through feeling suicidal any more, that you need support yourself, but certainly you would have much to give to others there.
I appreciated your post as a whole, but i am sorry that it took an accident and TBI to get you "out" of a job that was hurting you. yet, i can see how that can happen... i clung to my field for years, despite being burned job after job... going crazy each time (it's like, if it burns, don't keep touching it, yathink??? nope!) well, i am glad your accident at least came with this silver lining of sorts, even if you are now "differently challenged."
take care, and again welcome.
~ waves ~