I will re-read your post. I care about you. I am so sorry you are in pain. I'm not doing such a good job today on NT as I had a tooth pulled. I spent the day reading. I will be back to write to you, and try to respond in some kind way. You will be in my prayers as I go to sleep tonight. Sometimes things get so overwhelming it is hard to sort things out. Have faith that things can get better. ginnie