Oh honey, how deeply I can relate. It sounds like your brother and my brother were made from the same mold. I kept him with me during his worst depressive episode ever (after his divorce) put him in the hospital for alcohol abuse and attempted suicide. Then I had to ask him to leave 6 months later because he broke his promise about drinking.

I still love him so much. I raised him as well. I had to realize that I can't mommy him anymore and it hurt so bad. It hurt like hell. He is so unique and so ill.

I don't know what to tell you besides watch and wait for the moment to step in and get him somewhere safe. It's so frustrating and scarey knowing there is nothing you can do to force him to get help until he is dangerous to himself or other.

Oh honey. My heart is breaking for you.

Vent away. We are here for you.