i think that is one of being bipolar's main problems =having no defenses and the inability to fight off the negative in the environment. i haven't found a solution. last night i was on the phone with a friend and after a while i became so anxious. I finally had to get off the phone. the night before a friend dropped over and was talking about death and his possible death...it left me so low...i had no weapons to fight it. isolation doesn't work either.
right now you aren't feeling well so everything is compounded. how can you be more gentle to yourself. that is a hard one. i hope the virus flies away
love
bobby