Just wanted to tell all of you, that, in spite of your disabilities, be very grateful everyday that you have the children you have. I have an acute mental disability. I am 31 years old, and have no children. And, I may never have any.

Physically, it is very hard for me to get pregnant, and , because of my many hospitilizations, and my disability being what it is, I may never even be able to adopt any children.

I was lucky enough to get pregenant once, when I was only 13. My daughter, I wisely, gave up for adoption. My daughter would not even have been born, if my mother had gotten her way. She took me to the abortion clinic in another state where they did them up to 5 months at the time, but god answered my desperate plea, and the baby thankfully, was 7 months inside of me at this time. My mother continued to try to cause a natural abortion though. Through starving me, and insisting that I take an antibiotic that I was allergic to. She refused to fill the proper prescription given in lieu of the one I was allergic to, and insisted I keep taking the one that the dr. had told me to stop.(I had a bad respitory infection)

I, even at this age, was able to listen to the sound advice of a friend, and stopped taking the medicine. I was very lucky that she was born healthy and a good 7lbs. 6 oz. even though I had only gained 20lbs. while I was pregenant.

I miss her everyday. And pray for her often. I hope, and pray, that I get to meet her one day. She will be 17 on April 25th this year. She may be the only one I ever have. And, I know, that I will never have the bond that she shares with her adoptive parents. And, that so saddens me. So, the next time things start to get you down about being a disabled parent, just remember this story, and be very grateful that you get to have them at all. I, and many others like me, may never get to experience parenthood at all. I hope this didn't sound bad. It's not how I meant it. I'm just a little blue tonight over this again. Thanks for reading, all that do.

Peace,and Love,
-Cgirl-