Hi broken angel,
I'm so sorry for all your pain and struggles. So glad you found this forum, it's been a wealth of support, knowledge and information for me. When I first found out I needed a spinal fusion I was scared to death also! But also so tired of the pain.
My issues are very similar to yours medically, I had a fusion on C5, C6, C7 in march of last year. The pain was unbearable. I hope you are able to find some sort of rehabilitation center or family member to stay with during your recovery. You will need a lot of rest and help with everyday tasks during your first few weeks. Please look into options and maybe ask a councillor at the hospital for options. I will be worrying about you and thinking of you.
I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, hoping things turn around for you soon. Good luck with the surgery.

Cathie