I saw these words and I was a little troubled. I can't consider you selfish. Ever. Self aware, self-less (as in giving just for the sake of the act.) But not selfish.

Mari, honey. I am so sorry these things are bothering you. When I start obsessing about something, I study and research it to death. Eventually, I will come to the realization that I can do nothing about it and then I am able to move on. For me, it helps.

Does the yoga help you focus for meditation? I really need to find out where I can go to learn yoga. From what you say, I am more determined than I was before.

Hugs and more hugs. Hang in there.