You post was not boring at all. I can feel when a person is really having a tough time. We all need someone at times like that. I also know about the money situation, didn't have the insurance eithor. I think I was charged something like $800 for my evaluation up front too. If you think he can do the job, and do it well, I guess I would still not like him, but go ahead with it. Money is a problem as it was for me. Thats why there was no more help for me until I got medicare. Let me know what you decide. I just wish he had a better personality to put you at ease. The whole thing can be nerve racking, and I get so jittery anyway. Do you have a good friend at home, to help you during the hospital stay, and at home? That will help in a big way too. Why can't these real intelligent doctors become a little more compassionate? It seems to me that this element goes missing from their training sometimes. Maybe they should come here to NT and really hear from us, what they are like through the eyes of scared patient. I do think you will be just fine with this doctor. He is most likely smart as a whip and equally as skillful. I will be keeping you in my prayers, do keep in touch, ginnie