I am sorry you are going though so much. I wish it were over with too, and that the surgeon can fix it. Nobody would want to go through that. Please be brave. I am thinking about you and praying for you. Don't hesitate to contact SDfencer for support in PM. He lives with this horrible thing to. The doctors did say that they would operate didn't they? I wish I could do something to lift your spirits. I don't think I would have done as good as eithor of you have. My neighbor went through this too, and had his surgery about a year ago. he is doing very well, but a bit frail. he is 48 years old or there about. He had brain cancer followed by aneurysm. He is OK however and not in pain. I hope that you get to be free of this. ginnie