Thank you, both sections will probably help me a lot. As for how long I've had this cognitional impairing, I think I've had it all my life... I've always had trouble concentrating in school, and keeping my head in the books. It was only after becoming self-conscience of these problems at a very articulate level that I became torturing myself with how my brain works.

A few times I got hit in the head as an adolescent, with one occasion where I actually lost my vision for an entire day. It was because I got hit in the back of the head with a steel pipe from an angry friend which caused me to fall off the side of his basement stairs (we were sitting on the top step) and on to the cement floor. It wouldn't surprise me if I had injuries that are not showing up on a Cat Scan. That was my first thought... slow thought waves... but they never showed up positive on any Cat Scan/MRI, etc.

It's like this... my voice feels detached from my thoughts and emotions. Words that we speak naturally come from what thoughts we want to express, and what emotion we want to share in the sound of our voice. I seem to be void of thought flow whenever I want to speak, and because I am not taking my words from collective thoughts that are visible, no emotion is detected. Although people don't see this, only I do. To everyone else I am speaking normally. It's very confusing, because it's all in my head, but very real to me at the same time.

Also I am on medication which is not necessarily helping... I saw my psychiatrist today, and he increased the dosage. Hopefully that may help.