Mari, you are not selfish at all. Worrying is something we have no control over.

Time for some R and R and to do something fun to take your mind off things.

I try my best to live in the moment now, it seems I can't think past that because it hurts too much.

Sending good vibes......... Nikko

p.s. Vent away, that's why we are all here for each other.

Take care......