So last night I told my boyfriend we should go together to my next appointment since I decided to go back to see a neurologist (I had given up) so he can be fully aware of the illness but he insist that I'm giving up and he said that no matter what he will be by my side even if I end up in a wheelchair he made me promise not to push him away he even suggested we get married this summer since his insurance will cover the cost for me to be treated at the center for peripheral neuropathy in Chicago to get another option but I told him if we get married it should be out of love not because I can benefit from anything . Well few years ago my doctor prescribed gabapentin (not sure if spelled right ) but it it made me moody so I never took it. The numbness its not on a daily basis but it causes anxiety of whats next to come am I getting worst , pain wise just my left knee when I do mucb walking (I work with preschool kids ) . Other than that there is no pain just the weakened muscles in my leg and the depression every now and then .