First let me say how relieved I am to be through with that!!! Not that it was necessarily a BAD thing, just very frustrating to me...

You see, as I was proceeding through with the testing, it was obvious to me that I have deficits...I told the MD this and he said it was a good thing. Well, that's subjective. I think it's MORE frustrating knowing you are missing something and can't do a thing about it!

He gave me a "peek" into what his impression is, but needs a week to formulate the results. He also asked for my Fiance's phone number to contact him so that he can get his input....that's a good thing, because he can tell him about Ms. Jekyll/Hyde....

Obviously, I have issues with processing, memory and something else..probably recall...he read a story and asked me to tell him the story, using as many words as I could that he actually said. I almost burst into tears...how FRUSTRATING!!! But at the same time, what a relief! I saw first hand that I am missing SO much of conversations..

He stated that I am having a behavioral response to my injury (I could have told you THAT)...and that I would benefit from "talking to someone"...I could have used all of this a year and a half ago...yes I'm angry and yes I am bitter....

Suffice to say that I won't be returning to bedside Nursing anytime soon, if ever...he was gentle in saying this in so many words...he's hopeful for my rehabilitation (as I have always been)...we shall see what the final report looks like....

For now, it's rest...because this has truly kicked my butt and zapped me of any energy I thought I had...all reserves are empty...

It's a relief that I finally have some validation that this is a REAL injury with REAL symptoms and that I am absolutely not imagining this. Silly, I know. But I needed to at least hear that much