good day to all

hope all well

haven't been on here much
try not to go all over
it gets confusing for me
although i do surprise myself
and think i'm doing pretty good on my own
i have read some painful stories
it blows me away how many suffer
my story seems and is so confusing
and complicated but to fast
forward i am still in the process
of completing the removal of
double mastectomy was done
january 9th about if i were to guess
9:00ish
cancer
all is well new doctors
added to the bunch i'm already seeing
anyhow, my venture into going to a recommended
doctor for a pain pump has not begun yet either
what i want to get out is
all my pain prior to any surgery
not only has returned
especially after the second
cervical fusion done posterior
through in a cage
so lets see
level 5/6-6/7 with front plate with 6 screws
along with cage 2 cadaver bones still
to date have no clue if i fused
tbd with new doctors i will be going to
the same facility my sister goes to for her
surgeries in NYC
again my point i want to get out
i am on powerful doses of meds
90 ml oxycodone as per same
pain specialist doctor 3 years now
a relationship from the beginning
of when my body turned on me
now when we went through process
of elimination things came up
and here i am
neurotalk a place i just happen
to come across
no mistake
happy wonderful support
information
beautiful persons
i am still bed bound
but the meds do help
only it hinders other
areas because of the amount
no driving
so my sister is using my baby
as her car is out of commission
i so look forward to the spring weather
so much easier on the body
weather affects my whole being
this last cervical surgery******me up
and the surgeon knows it
new permanent pain
but won't own up to it
just hope the new venture
with new doctors will be different
took my life from me
that's what he did
and that's that
so now
i am here to help however i can
as i start all over
medicine is the only way i
am able to be as mobile as i am
and still have pain as i move
when meds are in
it is relief for me
sometime very rarely
i am able to skip second dose
a take just before bed
but for now some control
hope new year brings
recovery relief
and spring weather

wishing all well