Hello Justtired and welcome to SOS, im sad your present feelings bring you here but......promise you will stay around for the next 50 years or so.....

your cyber name explains your feelings.........very well.........

So the clue is there

1. tired.

.....more like exhausted.....depression is just that exhausting..........

rest my friend is the most important thing required

don't think ...just rest

and don't act or pretend that all is ok.....tell people it is not ok............by talking you help the healing to begin.

Please dont put your family through the misery of suicide.......[i tried and regret it so much............it affects so many people]

please keep TALKING

David