[QUOTE=Atma Namaste;
So comforting to have company in this nightmare![/QUOTE]

That is so true.
As I bounce around, on and off, I try to judge to what extent emotional events or creative binges cause the extreme ups and downs - the brain cranking out its own supply of dopamine, confusing the drug intake, but I have not identified a cause-effect thing. It's like a world gone random.
That would be a good name for a heavy metal band. World Gone Random.