Hi Bizi,
I like that you live near a grocery store and that that allows you to get what you need. Maybe it is ok to live to eat occassionally.

The times I loose weight are when I am not busy. They are times that I focus on exercise, sleep, and eating lots of veggies.

My mom and her siblings talk about food a lot. They talk about the good food to eat and what food is bad. But they never talk about their feelings toward food.

Her sisters were nurses so they are a bit more up to date on nutrition than she is. My mom thinks that ANY fat is bad for everyone. She lives on carbs and diet food (low fat mayo, diet margerine....) She doesn't keep any food in the kitchen or fridge. You have to go to a storage room a few rooms away to find a few items.

She would rather run to the store during the week than keep any food around -- she says that she is afraid that she is going to eat it all.

She and her sisters love to talk about exercise. My mom used to exercise about 3 hours a a day. Now that she is in her sixties she has redeced that, but exercise is part of her battle against putting extra weight on.
She is 5 feet and weighs about 110 which is probably normal weight for that height. But the amount of energy she puts into eating/not eating is amazing. Then she buys clothes that are 6 sizes too big in order to hide her body.

Often when she eats she says that she is disgusted because she shouldn't have eaten.

She raised us to hide our body behind clothes too.

I didn't pick up the exercise bug.
M.