I know the feeling well.....being trapped inside myself. Sometimes it's hard to get out of my own way. But, the longer I've had to deal with MS (since 2005) the easier it gets to accept. At least for me it does. Everyone has different circumstances to deal with in life. I think I've come to terms with the fact that this is my "normal". That takes a long time to do. Some folks never do. Some days it's easier to accept than others. My advice is to just take it a day at a time. It sounds like you have a good support system at home. That makes a huge difference.