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Originally Posted by Kheldar
Well, mine started immediately, partial diagnosis 2 months later, official diagnosis at the 6 month date, and that was before settlement and I basically had control over treatments. Is why I had mass physical therapies, medications being tried, nerve blocks, my sympathectomy... My worse days - I honestly have these and then wish I literally didn't have my right arm any more, JUST to stop the pain. My former therapists always asked me how I could endure and be so "bright, chipper" etc., at my visits, and I told them it wasn't easy but I had to or I would lose my mind from the incessant pain.
Sorry all I seem to be doing is venting, kind of nice to be able to for a while and hopefully "cleanse my system" of this need...
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Venting is good and necessary...keeping it inside just leads to badness. You have to try to stay positive and keep yourself from tail spinning down into depression but at the same time it's important to let out all the bad thoughts and feelings because if you keep them inside they will build up and depression is exactly where you will find yourself.
My boyfriend laughs at me and says I'm just too stubborn to get depressed...lol...and it's partially true. But he knows how much it hurts...he and his family and my family...they can all see it in my eyes despite the brave face I put on. But doctors and people who don't know me very well often think the pain can't possible be that bad if I can still smile and laugh. Shows what they know...but I have tried to not let that upset me. If someone makes a stupid comment I just look them calmly in the face and explain the way things are and that usually quiets them down. People can think what they want to think and there's nothing I can do about it except try to educate them about RSD and what it is like. If they choose to stay ignorant then I just feel sorry for them...wouldn't ever want to be one of THOSE people...they should all be pitied because it is just a sad way to live.