I am a single mom of three special needs kids. Will tell you that under great physical or emotional stress and a cold or flu, my seizures came in full force. I wrote my will because I didnt think I could possibly survive with the number of seizures I was having. I also couldnt tell others because I didnt (and still dont) have insurance and drove my kids where they needed to go. That was several years ago. I learned to stay away from ALL strobe lights, (this is a hard one)....limit your time on the computer and in front of TV. (sometimes I didnt follow that rule because it was my only outlet).

I learned to LIVE by my calendar!!!!!My kids today know, if its not written down, it cant happen. It helps to get your family to learn new rules. I have really learned to CHILL. We cant control our bodies, so I would pray that God would help me through my hurdles.
If having an antidepressant will help.... dont hesitate. Dont think about the future ..........not yet.... think about managing today and perhaps tomorrow. Part of the overwhelming feelings for me was trying to PLAN for the future. There is an old saying... Man plans and God laughs. As silly as this may sound, try to take it a little slower. Make SERIOUS time to destress... every night a cup of chamomile, or what ever you can do to truly let your body heal.
PLEASE try not to be so scared...I think that fear makes symptoms worse because we cant possibly see a bright future from the standpoint that you are in now. Hang in there friend.