David....dear dear David.. Right away your post reminded me of the Bug in the Cup....remember?

The Bug in the Cup

"For the moment you are like that bug trapped in the bottom of a cup. How you got in the cup, I don't know. How you will get out of the cup will be, most likely, a result of something you do, or what someone helps you to do. And, just maybe, I can help you a little.

The example of a bug trapped in a cup is used to illustrate a major problem we all face from time to time: namely, that once we are trapped in a situation, our solutions are limited by what we can see. We have walked around and around inside our cup and, seeing no way out, we decide that all hope is finished and that we are forever trapped. We climb up, but slip
back down. Everything we try fails. Then, when we are convinced there are no possible escapes left to us, we become depressed and helpless and hopeless and, sometimes, suicidal.

While human beings are bigger and supposedly smarter than bugs, I am not so sure that, when it comes to getting ourselves out of the cups we find ourselves in, we always do a better job of it. Once we are into a particular set of problems, I am not so sure all of us can think our way out of them - at least all by ourselves."

Loosely taken from Suicide: The Forever Decision by Paul Quinnett.

Everything changes...constantly. That's why I am forever saying that the black hole of depression has sides. That line really did jump out at me...at that particular time and at that particular moment I might have thought that not only is the day too long but life is too long. Today I might feel differently about it.

Life is hard and as I keep telling my dear husband...old age is not for sissys. Baby steps....baby steps until we can skip again.

You are still young enough to have choices in this life. Keep talking...
you can't know how helpful you are.