Dear Bobby,

i hear your dismay about the weight gain, after the hard work to lose it. i comfort-eat out of depression or anxiety also. we have to try though, not to get the double-depression version of anxiety (getting anxious about being anxious).

i wonder if you can remind yourself you are going through an anxious phase - i.e., this is temporary. you are not always this anxious. comfort eating is a symptom that will pass, when this acute phase passes. meanwhile, just do the best you can to eat healthy foods, but try not to blame yourself for having this anxiety.

for now, the best i can suggest is to try to snick snack on low-calorie, filling foods - like raw veggies. carrot sticks, celery, broccoli, cauliflower and bell peppers and fennel bulb are all good eaten raw. if you "need" some sort of condiment, try "dipping" in a shallow saucer where you put a small amount of olive oil, salt and pepper. a little goes a much longer way, and it's healthier than a dairy-based dip.

another thing i can suggest is to try to find a comforting activity to replace eating.

but remember this is a phase, and the loss of control over food is a symptom. it is not permanent.

You have my sympathy in this new unexpected wave of grieving for Yuki. i know how grief can suddenly come back like this. (((hugs)))

love

~ waves ~