Dear Mari

i comfort eat out of anxiety and out of depression. they are different behaviours.

with anxiety i don't usually gain weight! it's possible i am doing what you are doing. i often have specific cravings and the foods are not necessarily carbs. my most recent kick was raw broccoli/cauliflower like every day.

when i am depressed is when things go haywire with the carbs, but not only. i basically tend to want easy things to eat. bread, crackers etc... things that don't require any preparation. i eat hunks of cheese, bread with oil salt and cayenne, peanuts. i don't necessarily crave any of these things, but if, say i make a sandwich and want mayo on it, i do think about weight gain but the moment of "tastes good now" is more precious to me right then. i am usually having thoughts like, i never did get back to my optimum weight and never will so who cares... (depression talks.)

at least, i am no longer buying the real bad stuff like potato chips, icecream, cookies. at one time, i did that.

~ waves ~