I just want to say hello. I am sorry you are experiencing so much pain. I hope some of it can be resolved so you can get back your life. I also want to tell you that the mesh that was used on you, that there is already a pending law suit regarding it. There is a class action lawsuit which you have a limited time to contact them. I was involved with a class action lawsuit for another situation. It was worth my time and effort to become involved. There was restitution made to me, that covered all my expenses. You may want to contact your doctor for the manafactuer of that particular mesh, to see if it is is part of this law suit. I really am sorry that you are suffering. I hope your health can be restored. ginnie