A few months ago, I posted how much I loved going to the gym with my Son. I felt great getting into shape, and was enjoying the interaction with the "older" clientele at the gym in the morning lol (my 21 year old Son is such a good sport!)...

I've not been to the gym in over a month. I have a treadmill in my home which I haven't used much since my symptoms resurfaced with a vengeance and I've had weight loss as well, which I wasn't looking to do...I've actually lost 16 pounds since I've been out of work in July...I'm tipping the scales at 110 pounds...

So, I'm sitting here this morning...my eyes are tearing up a storm (as they've been for a few weeks..which I'm attributing to the dry New England air)..and thought maybe I'd try to go to the gym.

I can't go. I just can't. And I can't explain WHY, other than I just can. not.
I want to go, but can't. Reading this doesn't even make sense to me. It's completely how I FEEL though. Is it the fear of the noise that may exacerbate my symptoms? The interaction with others? I'm so frustrated!
I always feel better after I exercise...I may try to make my way to my treadmill for a bit and see if I can work myself out the door by the end of the week....

I really don't want to isolate myself from the world. I went out for a bit yesterday and it felt wonderful to see people...maybe I'm reading too much in to this...

As I type, I'm thinking that a large part of me doesn't want to RISK an exacerbation of my symptoms...I'm starting to walk on eggshells and I don't like that...I had a few decent days and am afraid of screwing that up...

Any advice???