I think what is happening to you is normal. We all go through periods with illness that can make us want to stay home. I am afraid to go out because of all the germs, I have a compromised immune system. I too hybernate at times. But...there comes a time I square up my shoulders, and go forward. don't beat your self up because you are afraid of making your symptons worse. Nobody wants to increase their pain levels or make the conditions worse. I would take this time out, reflect on it, accept it, and make those tiny moves forward. Get on your tred mill at home, enjoy the quiet if you can. Clear your mind, give yourself a break. It really is OK. I really do live in a high area of tourists, and get home bound and afraid. I rally around at some point and venture out again. Be kind to yourself, you are just trying to protect yourself and I don't think that is wrong to do. I hope this day can be better for you, and that you give yourself a hug. Happy Valentines day, from one person to another. ginnie