Hello there and welcome to NeuroTalk.

I'm sorry that you've been though such a tough time but I'm sure you'll get the support here that you need.

May I suggest that you post in our Survivors of Suicide Forum : http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

or our Depression Forum : http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum37.html

You will find a listening ear and a supporting shoulder in them both.