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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: USA
Posts: 162
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Member
Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: USA
Posts: 162
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Heck Yeah!
No body understands!
Everybody else gets to...
I'm 22, I should be in my prime, and here I am barely able to get out of bed!
I can't, I just can't deal with this anymore!
Why even bother dealing with people, it is too much trouble?
I should just shut myself in my room and ignore the world!
How can I bring myself to go home when I know they will want me to be part of the family and not a loner?
Every day I feel the temptations of self-pity, and then feel guilty for that, but this isn't good.
I have to keep reminding myself, that I do have the strength to deal with this. That if I do not have the strength, then those who love me (even if they do not understand) will support me. I also have to remember that I should not feel guilty because my body is acting up. People are very accommodating of people in wheel-chairs, people without legs, people with other common bodily problems. Just because my problem is invisible and seems arbitrary and weird does not mean that I am less needful of help than a person with a migraine or no hand.
Self-pity is not allowed because it is a deadly circle that leads to uselessness, but neither is guilt allowed because that is just another way to get into the deadly pit of self-pity.
We are ill, but we are not giving in!
Good Luck!
In Christ,
Margarite
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Fell off a horse in late winter of 2009 blacked out for a couple seconds, had amnesia for 10 hours (still don't remember this time), had 2 CT scans, 2 MRI's, 1 MRA all negative. Since the first concussion I have continually knocked my head into different things purely by accident or from being stupid. These many concussions over a short period of time have caused
constant migraines, nausea, and dizziness/lack of balance.
Migraine triggers are:
light sensitivity (especially to florescent or bright lights)
sound sensitivity (especially to high pitched or loud sounds)
temperature sensitivity (especially to cold or extreme heat)
activity (especially if breathing increases or head is jostled)
pressure on head (sinuses, hats, headbands, sunglasses, pony-tails)
lacks or quality (food, sleep, water)
tension (stress, tight muscles, tired eyes, sickness)
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