(((Kell))) You want your pain to end, not your life. Many of us on this forum have been where you are now...we try to hold each other up and give each other reasons to live. Depression is a beast and many of us fight it on a daily basis...it is a struggle but we have, or try to have, hope for a better tomorrow.

Suicide is forever, with no chance for improvement. And completion of suicide ruins more lives than you can imagine. Your two living children are reason enough to continue living. My only son killed himself and it forever changed our lives...don't leave your family that legacy.

There are threads stickied to the top of this forum that might be usual for you to read. Pters wise words about fighting for your life.

I'm glad you posted here...please continue to talk to us.