Are you getting counseling? Could you go to a support group like Compassionate Friends? Does your husband know how terribly depressed you are. You said he is a wonderful man...tell him exactly how you feel.

I am fond of saying that people cannot help you if they don't know how you feel. You have had a lot of bad experiences in your past and you rose above them to begin a new life. I really admire that and I know how much courage it takes to get up each day and begin again.

Have you read Tear Soup? It's a wonderful book and I highly recommend it. Tears heal us.