Hi daffodil,
I agree with you, I cant live with the "time bomb" either. Im looking forward to having treatment. Its been a llong road so far, things go wrong and other issues have cropped up but we are now moving forward and heres hoping that by the end of the year it will be all over with and I shall be able to return to my normal life as well.
Good luck to u, i hope all continues to go well.
Cass