I think that having all this on your plate is hard. So many of us here have some of the same issues piling, one on top of the other. I also know that Cleveland clinic is one of the best, and you will be in good hands. When my depression gets bad, I come back here, no question about that. I also try and distract myself from as my negativity as I can. I am a pain patient. I read alot, in fact so much sometimes I have to be careful of my fused neck. This takes me to any place, except the place where I am at. I pray alot too. I use the area I live in to celebrate God and nature. I try to keep with friends who are upbeat. However, sometimes depression is an issue, as well as all my other medical problems and family problems. I vent right here, and have gotten the support I need to move forward and not wallow in my pain and depression. I listen to music, and get a foot massage when I can. Having support around you at home is ever so important. I hope you have someone in your life to be a friend and lean on. I am here for you anytime. I am glad you found this site, it has help me more than councellors. ginnie