Beth I am sorry help didnt come in time for the one you were trying to get it for. I can say I have been that low in the past . Do NOT hold yourself responsibled for another persons actions. I sometimes post in the sos forum here at neuro - (Survivors Of Suicide ...sos ) it is a great place to get or give support . I know how badly I feel when I am unable to help someone or when the PNS isnt working and they have it taken out . I also know how it is to lose a friend when they chose to end living.

Beth you ran a support group I dont think I could or would want to do that . My thoughts well that is for an email lol. can I ask if you were a nurse or in the care giving field?? You seem up on that side of it too besides the support .

So I am getting the idea that when you have the PNS on that high setting the lead is close to skin and moves or gets bigger ? If so well , heck yes it probably need to be re positioned. and if possible secured to tissue . that isnt always possible tho mine isnt secured it is just scared over with tissue .

I think the Warrior you are the great doc you have and all of us here praying and sending positive energy to you things will keep going fairly smooth. Sad that your apt over 2 hrs and nothing good but also nothing bad... so came out even and that seems like a waste ..cept they got paid for the 2 hours .lol
Praying and sending good wishes for your apt for bump that it starts, goes, and end extra well.
Keep us updated and hope your have a good week...I put in my veg garden this weekend. and am into march madness .
PEACE
BMW
p.s. yes looking ..looking forwards . I LOVE your words at the end of your last post t.y.