Thank you! I dont feel so alone now. its really weird for me to be preoccupied about folks. Let me give some examples.

I thought my eye surgeon thought I was "faking it" and that I could see more than I let on. then I heard her telling DH how blind I really was, and that I had broken her heart with how hard I was trying to see that chart for her. How did I misinterpret her?

Had not heard from my son in days. I thought for sure he must be upset that I jumped in the middle of his relationship. I gave him a number for him and g/f to go to counseling and try to work it out. I also put up flyers around town that they were giving away a 2 y/o rescued pug. g/f was kinda snotty about the flyer thing, and really only thought that DS was going to counseling. She was just going to be supportive. Huh?? So, I stressed that now she AND he were upset with my interventions, even tho both had asked for help. DS hasnt called because he is doing double shifts. g/f hasnt called because she is mad at my son, not at me. yet, I wore it like a wool coat, sweated it out for days.

I was given a certificate for being blind which entitled me to many benefits in town, such as a tax break on property taxes...I had to go to town and tell them that I am not going to stay legally blind, that I want the cert back. I felt silly, and they acted like I was trying to pull a fast one.

I had my car for sale, and had several offers. (none met my bottom line) so I took the for sale sign off the car. A few folks were upset and one told me he thought I was "using this whole blind thing as a way to increase the price, and now I am trying to gouge him by removing the sign." um...NO! I am removing the car for sale because I hope to use it.

Those are just a few examples, and its weird, because I am not a girl who cares what they think. I was raised by weirdos, thieves, liars, and cheats. I have maintained a life of honesty and integrity. That is why I went and reclaimed the blind paper, instead of allowing it to sit and continue to collect benefits I am not entitled to.

I hate this disease. I just hate this stupid disease. it does things that make no sense.