Hi Mari
the dream really bothered me. I never realized how upset i was by her treatment of me so I guess I still have a lot of rage in me towards my mother. I think a lot of it too is because i am bipolar and everything gets magnified. I wish I had a dream where i was making up with her.
i am not good at analysing dreams and my therapist doesn't do it. I think they are important.
I read somewhere that you can put olive oil into coffee. I am afraid to try it but one of these days I might. I am still having it with romaine lettuce. A friend suggested i put it on roasted vegetables. She mentioned using a pan and putting aluminum foil under it and roasting the vegetables. I perseverated and kept on thinking of a frying pan since i hardly use the oven and asked her how do the vegetables roast. we laughed for a few minutes.
I woke up again really depressed. I am so ambivalent about life. yesterday at the center a woman who was 104 sat at the table. she has to use a wheel chair but she was really sharp. amazing. there was a lot of talk at the table. i wound up not doing the crossword puzzles.
I am dreading doing the taxes although i don't have that much to do. I think i will use last years as a template. i don't owe any taxes so if i make a mistake i am not really afraid.
my neighbor stopped over yesterday to see Pudge. Pudge was very sweet. I am so fortunate about my neighbor. she offered to pay for the grooming which cost about 110 dollars and she even took her to the groomers. she then took me out to eat. I am really appreciative and realize that something must be wrong with me for being so depressed when i had such nice things happen to me. also the forum makes me feel better. i feel as if i am cared about.
thank you all so much
fondly
bobby