Jim......so sorry to hear you are having so much to deal with. Loving someone and not being loved back can be like an illness in itself. It drains your whole being.

Are you able to drive? Getting with a friend for lunch, etc. Whatever.....you need to Get Out of the House. I learned that many years ago when I went into deep depresssion. I finally, thru the help of God climbed out of that dark hole. One thing I did realize; when the darkness inside wanted to startup again, I would do all I could to get out of the house. One of the things that did help me was getting involved ever so slowley in Church activites... helping others, when possible. It was necessary to get "outside myself". Suport Groups sometimes can be of help in new friendships.

Thank you for sharing. I will keep you in my prayers, along with so many others.
(Ger)