It is hard. Much of life is. Don't give up either. Many of us on this site go through many difficult situations. You can find some support here. I had no insurance either. It took alot of time to get disability. I did find alot of help right here with all the problems I face. Keep in touch. There are womens centers located in most towns. These places can direct you to some physicians that can see you on a sliding scale. If you do not having much, they don't ask for much. I did this first to get medical help. I received several surgeries while I was waiting for a hearing with the SS people. There is help both mentally and physically if you will just reach out for it. I hope alot of others will respond to you, and give you more ideas. I will be here to listen. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie