Ginnie i dont blame you for being bitter. im po'd myself for the large amount of back pay i lost by having to change my onset date to get a favorable decision. I didnt lose everything like you did. i cant tell you what to feel. in that post i wrote to faded design when he was ready to let it go. only the person involved knows when that is possible. the future is scary, i feel that also.

ultimately however we all have to keep on putting one foot in front of the other and put it all in the rear view mirror. the alternative isnt good.