Hi echoes, just to be understood by another human being helps alot. I worked as so many of us do, all that I could in life. I did my best. It wasn't good enough to protect myself from this senerio I find myself in. Yes I put one food in front of the other, as I don't want the alternative, but my steps are heavy. I do pray for all of us who go through experences that hurt. Thank you for your post. take care of yourself, ginnie