I am hear to listen to you anytime. There will be others too that can try to offer support. Type in Cronic Pain in the search box, and you will find there are all kinds of people who live with cronic pain. I do too, and I go to a pain specialist. I don't want you shuffled around doctor to doctor either. That is very frustrating. if you can get a primary health care specialist, he may be able to direct you better to who you need to see. I have had two cerival spinal fusion, and 6 other surgeries, so I know exactly how you feel. I am sorry you are young to have to go through all that. I was 55 when all the **** hit the fan. I try to pray alot too, just to calm myself, and find that moment of peace. Truely, you do need someone that is permanent in your corner, for pain, and psychological problems that Result from living with cronic pain. The depression goes along with cronic pain. A doctor needs to understand this. You most likely would not be depressed at all if you didn't have all the pain. I get that. Don't hesitate to go for council either. That was a good step for me. I do have a psychologist that I talk to often. He has been a positive influence in my life. My PCP is extraordinary in that he listens to me. Those are things you need to find to have a better quality of life.
Where are you located? What kind of surgeries have you had? . It is OK to talk about it anywhere on this site. There are so many here who can relate to what your experiences have been. Take heart, and be strong. find the medical care you need to feel more comfortable. ginnie