Well I'm now 6 days out from my first block and the pain/immobility is back. I am crushed. I was euphoric Monday, Tuesday and most of Wednesday - even though I was still in some pain, it was NOTHING compared to what it had been. But, Wednesday night my pain started to increase and I had lost the ability to move my toes again. I told myself to go to sleep and when I woke up it would be better again... it wasnt. It was worse! And each day since it has increased. Today I'm back to the orginal pre-block pain. I hate it! I dont want to accept it! I dont feel like I can accept that this is something I'll struggle with for the rest of my life! I just cant! I just dont know where to turn and what to do next! I have an appointment with the pain doc on Tuesday, and I assume he'll want to do another block - and I will, but I want more! I want this over with! I feel like I've lost it! I actually sit and yell at my foot. I tell it that its fine! There are so many options for possible RSD treatment, but I've found that most do not take medical insurance. I do not have the money, as much as I wish I could pay for Ketamine, or some of the other treatment I've read about, I cant! I'd rob a bank for it, but since Im either on crutches or in a wheelchair, I doubt Id make it out before the police show up - and since my husband is a police officer I doubt he'd appriciate me breaking the law. I just feel like I've reached a whole new low in desperation... I feel hopeless and broken... I feel lost. I dont know, sorry Im just ranting now! For those of you that have suffered from this years and still manage to survive - youre my heroes! I've only had it for coming up on three months and each day Im unsure how I'll even get out of bed!