penguinsfan,

As I have said before and xanadu has also just suggested, you need to get treated for your anxiety/OCD. It is destroying your life as much if not more than your PCS.

It appears you are way beyond the CBT and exposure/response therapies for now. The proper meds and professional support may be able to get you to a point where meditation and other therapies will help.

You may need to move out of your current environment to be free of the anxiety/OCD triggers. You will not be able to heal your PCS until you get control of your anxieties. It is like you are standing in a mud puddle and trying to wash your feet. Every time you put one foot down to wash the next, it gets dirty again. Your OCD/anxiety is doing this to your brain.

I hope you can find a way to get the professional help you need.

My best to you.