I don't want to sound harsh or make light of what horrible things have happened to you -- bless your heart, you have been in some dark places.

BUT, I don't want you to think that the ONLY thing you can do is sit "still" and get a check. This, in my humble opinion, would be the WORST thing for your self-esteem. You are a SURVIVOR!! Girl, so many wouldn't still be here -- alive and kicking after all you have been through!! Meds CAN turn your world around. I've seen it in my years as a guidance counselor and as a friend to people in horrific situations. You are just gonna have to have some faith.

Maybe you will have to rely on public assistance FOR A WHILE -- but, with a end goal of GETTING BETTER and getting a job that will give you pride and a good income! I can SEE it happening!!

Strattera is a great drug for focus -- I have a family member with ADD who takes it. I know it can have side effects, but he isn't have any problems. It took him from C's and D's to A's!! Bi-polar is pretty well understood and can be treated. PTSD can be treated with counseling. NOTHING is easy -- but, if you don't TRY...........!!! Remember, you've had people who didn't BELIEVE you. When you have people who believe you and CARE..................your world is gonna change!